Author: Cygnus Wave

Not that I want to, you see, whenever I’m near you
I feel as though my hopelessness is gone
You make me feel as though I could never do wrong
I want you so bad, so bad that it’s driving me mad
But I’ll never learn, no I’ll never learn

Whenever I’m near you, I’m struck with desire
My mind and my heart and my soul catch on fire
I feel so high, just like when I was younger
Don’t want to get hurt but I’ve got such a hunger

To kiss you and hold you and never let go of you
I want so bad to tell you
But I fear the rejection that I might go through
If only once you’d show me that you’re not the perfect girl for me
Than I’d learn, yes maybe I’d learn

All I can do now is just dream about you
And wish, hope, and pray that these dreams will come true
Someday I may tell you, straight up with no riddles
If I could just hold you, I’s soon have a little

Of fortune and glory, a happily ending story
I can’t help but want you even though it’s not what I should do
And happiness has eluded me for such a long time
But now it’s my turn, finally it is my turn

Composition © 1995 Ric Albano
Publication © 2011 Cygnus Wave Music

Performers
Ric Albano
Piano, Keyboards, All Vocals

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Analysis: Armed with a brand new sequencer, I put together a series of songs with a bit more complex, albeit electronic. arrangements. I’ve always liked this one because it sounds simple but is a bit complex, combining a traditional rock pattern with some edgy augumentation.

I said things that I just didn’t mean
It was desperation that made me scream
The thought of losing you drove me mad
I just couldn’t cope with life without having what we had

Because you’re the girl who owns my heart even though we’re still apart
I hope you find the difference between what I say and what I mean

I used to see the love in your eyes
They say the eyes are the windows to the soul
I used to think that love couldn’t die
But apparently there was something that I just didn’t know

You ended it all much too fast and my heart, it shattered like glass
I shouted things that I soon would regret
Is there any way now we can forgive and forget?

So girl, I guess that is where we stand today
Can you forgive for being so cruel on that terrible day?
I’ll love you forever, until I die, and those words were never lies
Hope you find the difference between what I say and what I mean
Can you hear the difference between what I say and what I mean?
Can you feel the difference between what I say and what I mean?

Composition © 1995 Ric Albano
Publication © 2011 Cygnus Wave Music

Performers
Ric Albano
Piano, Keyboards, All Vocals

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Analysis: Perhaps the best pure pop song I ever wrote, this simple piano ballad about a breakup contains a pleasant melody and some high-end keyboard work in the arrangement.

Songs echo the endless night, songs of bitter hard despair
She fights off the evil plight, strong revenge upon the dare
All alone, she conquers the gloom
Now it’s gone, yes it’s gone

A definite beginning, an uncertain end
The song of life goes on and on
A runaway train going around the bend
A purple-ish tomato and a shield of Tron
Sadly, they all exit the room

The obstacles of freedom no longer exist
Constructed by myself, with her help torn down
Shining days of glory, like sand in a the fist
The tighter that we squeeze, the faster it falls down
Madly, love has formed is cocoon
It goes on, on and on

Finally, no longer a memory
We two know, it is here for all plain to see
We’ve escaped the rude, the old, and the cold
Now we know the warm, the young, and the bold

Shacked up in a cottage way up in the hills
We exist, no longer slaves to commonplace
No longer do we worry about what we may have missed
Tearless, we live for today
Don’t look back, don’t look back

Don’t ya, don’t ya, don’t ever look back
Resist temptation, give history a smack
Make it a point to don’t ever look back
Don’t endear that sensation, it wasn’t that great in the past

Composition © 1993 Ric Albano
Publication © 2011 Cygnus Wave Music

Performers
Ric Albano
Piano, Keyboards, Vocals

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Analysis: This song is a rarity of several fronts. It was my first and only attempt to make a recording outside the confines of “Rathole” studios, as I brought my equipment to an apartment where I lived to record much of this (it was later finished at Rathole). Also, it is the only record made during a 20 month stretch from March 1992 until November 1993. Musically, it breaks through with all electronic instruments for the first, something that will be more widely adopted towards the end of Wahray and Soul.